achievment and attidutes

my mood like swing keep on swinging.i just need time to rest.and finally my 4 songs is ready.there two more idea of songs coming to me.but see..my friend dunno how to make music still say still she like veri clever.lol..end up..i must wait till i go for my class den say.bull shiting..selected song think only 3 bahss..another two mus wait i sing 1 time 2nd time forget.lol..feel so unhappy bout my life..waiting for my holiday to come.i need to chill out man.dunno why my mood nowadae so bad.i dun feel like toking to anyone.not even my close friend.lol.just want to keep quiet.so people leave me alone.maybe that my artise attidute.im weird.weird mood..lol..im so tired..tired of my life too.think of lying on a quiet beach.no one.just me.with a guy that i wanted the most.thats all..dreams n love can merc too..

hoop a hoop

my gd friend ask me why i want my sucess career?i told her that what everybody wanted.but there is oways give and take u see.why i want to sucess..is to let those idiots that think they are actually good that they are not that good.be proud of urself but not over proud.i wont even akownlege that i once noe them those you see.but not all is let tt.i want to show those people that eventually look down on people that hey..im better off den you now you see.but for those supporting me.i saw all of ur gd soul.that is truly from the heart.from hard to harder.i will do it better..im not goin to say i lose..i will win.feel like shouting out loud.but is so true..after i change my name..everything come so suddenly.my dream half of it was done.my new name:kerina cherriish liu xuan en my previous name:kerina liu li ping big differnt yeah.my old name is so common.i like my new name alotss..that is for furture usage.okay..that all for today..smile

A minutes of feelings~

a min of feelings~everyone should have..after talking to one of my friend while smoking.suddenly feel that i really grown up..i dun wan to get into any relation now i told her.is jus b'cos i want to forcus on my career.now i also confuse about my jobs.i'm having my full time job,part time model,and i'm going for my music singing class.woo~~i dun even have the time to take a big breath.but im fine with it.cos there is wad i like.my career..why i dun choose love my friend ask me.cos i dun trust love anymore.fate dun like me.dun everyone think so?when u like sumone that person wont like u.but all those u dun like,all like u.is just so amazing.and the hurt that love give is simply too much that wad i think.road is stil long.slowly bahs.so please my music career say yes to me.that wad im praying for now.i know wad i will facing after that.all the stress..todae same programe..a roll of words.

a roll of words for the days:trust doesnt come with love

when the day you hold her hand with love

is the day my tears roll along

is the laughter that used to be have gone

i know the answer from your eyes

hold her and dun let go

im the one leaving in ur memory

both my good friend

all the misunderstanding

dun tell me you regret

the day your words slapped me hard

is the day my heart stopped shouting

and yes that is wad i say

trust doesnt come with love

you broken the bond so dun beg me

oh my dearest~

you say im your good friend

but it doesmt seem so

u doesnt trust me at all

when love walk by we pass by

when you say sorry

is fate baby

i've let go our memory

lets be the best stranger of all

farewell at backstage bar

farewell to our dearest staff that are goin back to their country.hmm..back to backstage bar.a bar that is reali nice in atmosphere.chinese like bar.but interesting things do happen there.something that i dun wan to say out..=Xbut some kind of thick face things..and idiot shavy say derr thingss.oMg..so funny..that so happening..hmm..continue later..working..T_T

dreamers have no choice of love

people ask me..i will choose mydream or my love..?and now to the extend..i choose my dream.and i noe there's no way out anymore..but i dun regret at all..this my dream..my dream path..is half way done.i wont give up.so have to say sorry to my love tthat dun reali want to give up to me.but strangly i felt so anxious.i shld'nt feel like this.weird..soon..taiwan wait for me.i know i will have to give up wadeva im doin now..and wadeva i have now.my freedom my time even my slp...wont be a ordinary girl.not like the past..look back im so childish.but now im freshly reborn..a new me.without all the sad past that i have throw away.and my yue ding with a ****i wony bomb him out..=Xyi qi nu li ba..i will do better dan you oh!!we as a dreamer that go after our dearest dream dun have a choice to have the love we want.people out there..treasure the love you have.no matter is friend.family or BGR.life will nvr be perfect.either is hard come 1st or sweet come 1st.no one get a short cut.me?i have my hard & harder.but in my hard time i found sweetness.ths for ppl that oways supporting me.i have confident i can do it better..wont disappoint you all.i give up my love,my freedom,my time to fuflil my dream..that means that all things have a price.i learn that.you?now i got a list of words to share here.

rolls of my words:lying to myself[englisg version]

baby,you ask me dun cry.but look at my heart closely.it never stop crying.

take it wadeva you say is right.im thinking too much.

look at our gap

it's never been as close as it was told

lie to myself that you love me

lie to myself that is you dont dare to tell me your love

lie to myself to fall into my own lies

lie to myself that everything is real

look at the sky

think of the past

can never find someone as foolish as me

look at your smile that is so sweet

but is was falling on others heart

look at my smile is so fake is falling on my tears

turn around walk away

give you back your time

put my tears on your smile

freeze the memory

lies that im lying

lies that people belief

lying to myself

forgive me for al my lies

hope everyone like this.this was just a feel..i guess alot of people will go through this is just that dun dare to face the fact that is all lies.but look..i belief in fate.like im fate to be in my career.there will be someone waiting for you like you wait for them.cheers

香草咖啡#dreams competing with love

i composed two songs lerr.next month goin lee wei song there see the lesson & fees first.but that RPL dun even have any hint for me.by our way is simply too slow..i want my dreams..or i want my love?but he dun do any thing den of cos my dream den.i dun seem to belief in love.he's derr 3rd guy that evetually touched my heart.mayb he's derr last one before i went to my dream.hmm..let's say about work bahss.im so bored.everydae rain siia.i nv see him for days.& im late for work todae.no mood write todae.....

i love pubbing~!!

i went to raining bar yesterdae.is bored at 1st.wait song for dunno how many hrs.lol..but i get to noe ah white alex.ah white is i gib him de nick cos i got to noe 2 alex there.hahas..ah white alex a veri sweet guy.very caring for fren oso.think if got chance he can bcum my super ga ki liao.super gd fren.hahas.but he is goin army soon lerr.next month he might be goin in army lerr or mayb go poly further study.he look unfrenly but his real character is very cute.hahas.i found myself another gd fren to be.n another grp of fren that look quite scary.mr donut coconut milk,andy n.....hahas.found myself lots of frens yesterdae.and got 1 mr long hair that look like my ah boi ru soon.so scary..ru qiang oso dun look so alike..-.-im so content.hahas.but de best is stil get to noe ah white alex.XD.i loves all de frens around me..XD