achievment and attidutes

my mood like swing keep on swinging.i just need time to rest.and finally my 4 songs is ready.there two more idea of songs coming to me.but see..my friend dunno how to make music still say still she like veri clever.lol..end up..i must wait till i go for my class den say.bull shiting..selected song think only 3 bahss..another two mus wait i sing 1 time 2nd time forget.lol..feel so unhappy bout my life..waiting for my holiday to come.i need to chill out man.dunno why my mood nowadae so bad.i dun feel like toking to anyone.not even my close friend.lol.just want to keep quiet.so people leave me alone.maybe that my artise attidute.im weird.weird mood..lol..im so tired..tired of my life too.think of lying on a quiet beach.no one.just me.with a guy that i wanted the most.thats all..dreams n love can merc too..

hoop a hoop

my gd friend ask me why i want my sucess career?i told her that what everybody wanted.but there is oways give and take u see.why i want to sucess..is to let those idiots that think they are actually good that they are not that good.be proud of urself but not over proud.i wont even akownlege that i once noe them those you see.but not all is let tt.i want to show those people that eventually look down on people that hey..im better off den you now you see.but for those supporting me.i saw all of ur gd soul.that is truly from the heart.from hard to harder.i will do it better..im not goin to say i lose..i will win.feel like shouting out loud.but is so true..after i change my name..everything come so suddenly.my dream half of it was done.my new name:kerina cherriish liu xuan en my previous name:kerina liu li ping big differnt yeah.my old name is so common.i like my new name alotss..that is for furture usage.okay..that all for today..smile

A minutes of feelings~

a min of feelings~everyone should have..after talking to one of my friend while smoking.suddenly feel that i really grown up..i dun wan to get into any relation now i told her.is jus b'cos i want to forcus on my career.now i also confuse about my jobs.i'm having my full time job,part time model,and i'm going for my music singing class.woo~~i dun even have the time to take a big breath.but im fine with it.cos there is wad i like.my career..why i dun choose love my friend ask me.cos i dun trust love anymore.fate dun like me.dun everyone think so?when u like sumone that person wont like u.but all those u dun like,all like u.is just so amazing.and the hurt that love give is simply too much that wad i think.road is stil long.slowly bahs.so please my music career say yes to me.that wad im praying for now.i know wad i will facing after that.all the stress..todae same programe..a roll of words.

a roll of words for the days:trust doesnt come with love

when the day you hold her hand with love

is the day my tears roll along

is the laughter that used to be have gone

i know the answer from your eyes

hold her and dun let go

im the one leaving in ur memory

both my good friend

all the misunderstanding

dun tell me you regret

the day your words slapped me hard

is the day my heart stopped shouting

and yes that is wad i say

trust doesnt come with love

you broken the bond so dun beg me

oh my dearest~

you say im your good friend

but it doesmt seem so

u doesnt trust me at all

when love walk by we pass by

when you say sorry

is fate baby

i've let go our memory

lets be the best stranger of all

farewell at backstage bar

farewell to our dearest staff that are goin back to their country.hmm..back to backstage bar.a bar that is reali nice in atmosphere.chinese like bar.but interesting things do happen there.something that i dun wan to say out..=Xbut some kind of thick face things..and idiot shavy say derr thingss.oMg..so funny..that so happening..hmm..continue later..working..T_T

dreamers have no choice of love

people ask me..i will choose mydream or my love..?and now to the extend..i choose my dream.and i noe there's no way out anymore..but i dun regret at all..this my dream..my dream path..is half way done.i wont give up.so have to say sorry to my love tthat dun reali want to give up to me.but strangly i felt so anxious.i shld'nt feel like this.weird..soon..taiwan wait for me.i know i will have to give up wadeva im doin now..and wadeva i have now.my freedom my time even my slp...wont be a ordinary girl.not like the past..look back im so childish.but now im freshly reborn..a new me.without all the sad past that i have throw away.and my yue ding with a ****i wony bomb him out..=Xyi qi nu li ba..i will do better dan you oh!!we as a dreamer that go after our dearest dream dun have a choice to have the love we want.people out there..treasure the love you have.no matter is friend.family or BGR.life will nvr be perfect.either is hard come 1st or sweet come 1st.no one get a short cut.me?i have my hard & harder.but in my hard time i found sweetness.ths for ppl that oways supporting me.i have confident i can do it better..wont disappoint you all.i give up my love,my freedom,my time to fuflil my dream..that means that all things have a price.i learn that.you?now i got a list of words to share here.

rolls of my words:lying to myself[englisg version]

baby,you ask me dun cry.but look at my heart closely.it never stop crying.

take it wadeva you say is right.im thinking too much.

look at our gap

it's never been as close as it was told

lie to myself that you love me

lie to myself that is you dont dare to tell me your love

lie to myself to fall into my own lies

lie to myself that everything is real

look at the sky

think of the past

can never find someone as foolish as me

look at your smile that is so sweet

but is was falling on others heart

look at my smile is so fake is falling on my tears

turn around walk away

give you back your time

put my tears on your smile

freeze the memory

lies that im lying

lies that people belief

lying to myself

forgive me for al my lies

hope everyone like this.this was just a feel..i guess alot of people will go through this is just that dun dare to face the fact that is all lies.but look..i belief in fate.like im fate to be in my career.there will be someone waiting for you like you wait for them.cheers

香草咖啡#dreams competing with love

i composed two songs lerr.next month goin lee wei song there see the lesson & fees first.but that RPL dun even have any hint for me.by our way is simply too slow..i want my dreams..or i want my love?but he dun do any thing den of cos my dream den.i dun seem to belief in love.he's derr 3rd guy that evetually touched my heart.mayb he's derr last one before i went to my dream.hmm..let's say about work bahss.im so bored.everydae rain siia.i nv see him for days.& im late for work todae.no mood write todae.....

i love pubbing~!!

i went to raining bar yesterdae.is bored at 1st.wait song for dunno how many hrs.lol..but i get to noe ah white alex.ah white is i gib him de nick cos i got to noe 2 alex there.hahas..ah white alex a veri sweet guy.very caring for fren oso.think if got chance he can bcum my super ga ki liao.super gd fren.hahas.but he is goin army soon lerr.next month he might be goin in army lerr or mayb go poly further study.he look unfrenly but his real character is very cute.hahas.i found myself another gd fren to be.n another grp of fren that look quite scary.mr donut coconut milk,andy n.....hahas.found myself lots of frens yesterdae.and got 1 mr long hair that look like my ah boi ru soon.so scary..ru qiang oso dun look so alike..-.-im so content.hahas.but de best is stil get to noe ah white alex.XD.i loves all de frens around me..XD

let past be derr past

let past be de past.let derr story be here & i will forget bout it.cos i found my happiness that i wanted though is not in my hand yet.A=my gd fren[girl] X=a guy i like before.me&A are veri good friends.as close as sisters.me N X,he is my senior in school but i dun reali tok to him.but we get to noe after he left derr school to ite.we two get very well.he will tell me almost everything.& of cos i trust him.but i dun reali tell him alot of my sadness or things that happen that irritate me.cos i noe he is already not in mood i dun wan to dd on his burden so i only be his listener.i guess he wil never noe cos he wont find why i dun tell him what is on my mind.there's 1 day.that was on a chinese new yr.i was eating steamboat at a fren hse.there only 4 of us eating.he call me ask me where i am.i told him.& he took a cab went down to find me.we talk at staitcase till both our stomach actually give out noise & den we went in to eat.strangely that idiot only eat vegetable.something bad happen.i was worried for him.i hide inside derr room.i cried to slp.when i awoke.my frens told me that he went already.i didnt care much cos of too sleepy.main story come..there's 1 day.after school.same me with 2 fren went to derr same place to slack.S=1 of my used to be sister.S told me n my fren{D that she go buy cigarette.as usual me n D sit there n wait.but after a long time i was worried.D went to check.she told me she saw A,S,X sit at another blk.i dun belief n went to see.n there they seated there.furious n sadness came to me.i pretent nth happen n when S came back she sy her dad ask her to go hm.n that A cant mit us.tears eventually wanted to roll down but i bear with it.my sisters n derr guy i like n dote actually gang up to lie to me.i text them tellin them im disappointed.i went to find Z which was me n X derr gd fren.Z heard derr story call n scolded X.but den X scolded me sayin why i told Z bout it.that break my heart more.totally sadness in mind.i dun even want to bother bout them.D told me that actually is not derr 1 st time thay lie to me.there is several times thay mit up oso.i totally break down.is that why they nid to hide from me.lie to me.at D bdae chalet they were there too.we play play play.but they nv noe how i was trying to hide my tears with my smile.X keep beggin for my forgive but i dun bother bout him.is simply a word trust,boy.when X bothers asked them to hold hands infront of me.finally my tears ask me to run.secretly i run.as fast as i can i stopped at a carpark i kneeled down & i cried it out.D run to me.touch on my shoulder n head askin me not to cry cos of them is not worth.i dry up my tears ,carry a heavy feeling walk back to de chalet.forcing myself to smile.and im lucky that my acting is gd nobody actually noe i cried before.derr whole night i didnt tok to him.but slowly,blame it on my soft hearted.i forgib him.but wheneva X n A quarrel he will call me or came to find me.but he never noe when i listen to them how heart pain is to hear best fren n some 1 u like derr story.and 1 thing that he wil oso nv noe.bcos of him i went steady with a guy i dun like.jus to pretent i dun like him anymore.is silly i noe.there's 1 night he actually came to our secret car park to find me.den we wnt to mac to have drinks.when his bros come .X actually want to protect me.so we gib excuse n run back to de car park.that night was derr best memory i have eva have with him.we lie together on de carpark look at stars together.both of us love stars.we tok alots.n i noe 1 thing that make me nealy went to jump down derr car park.it was so lame.he told me that he wil like A was cos that night steamboat she ask him 1 question;you reali want to go meh?'this phrase only.hello!!!i lose to 1 phrase that is so stupid.lol.that touched his heart.pui~..lets go to de last part of story de rest of derr quarrel is small case.last quarrel that make thing back to zero.back to wad we shld be.1-2 yrs no contact is all cos of that...A call me say she quarrel wib X..say how X say how X treat her..n.....but did they eva noe.im in derr middle of no where..i dun wan to bother..reali.why mus i be inside der picture.i call X asked why he quarrel wib A.end up got scolded by him.he say'dun act la.dont think i dunno you behind say my bad words.'i only remember this phrase.when i try to ask him why he say that to me.he text me say im a bitch.overall that what i get back.i can only say i know i have a clear mind n i nv do this type of things.he dun belief me jus prove that he dun trust me.n yrs of thinking.i noe who did it even if he dun tell me.who else will he protect at tt time.who else he will listen at tt time.who else can make him scold me.who els can make me quarrel with him.there onli 1 person..A / S... to X if he eva read til this blog.have u eva think why i can slp on de floor n u slp on de bed.dun go to school jus to keep u accompany de night.n i got scoldiin from my parents.wheneva u nid me i will be there.but when i nid u have u eva been there?look at my changes now is cos of you.but now look back i mus ths u if not i wont have todae derr confident n changes.but i hate you i give u back tis word u give me yrs ago..cos of you i dun trust love.im scare of being i love.and BITCH this word will nv leave my heart.is like tattoo.ur last yr bdae.the 1st yr i celebrate ur bdae.im reali happy u noe.i mus ths to jeff after all..is his bdae make us tok.jus a few words im fine.ur bdae present.i use my sweat my blood to change back de.derr job that i work for it for the money to buy that present for you.have u wonder how long i have to stand with my high heels that make my leg swollen after der whole dae.meals is cigarette with orange juices.jus to save derr money to buy for you der addidas limite addions watch.u dun even noe a thing stupid.but yrs past..i forgive everything you do..n our mistake of knowing each other in a wrong way.all the things oso is what i do no one force me.jus blame it on my silly..if find till a better go for it.

trying make sucess!

i being trying for yrs & i finally created tis stupid acc.hahas~woo.i reali got alot to say yeah.my 1st blog i comfirm put all my sistas photo in.hahas.hmm..let start man.you see sometimes i dun get it why man are so stuborn.gals see when like 1 person that person wont like you but those u dun like 1 all come after you.for sayin frens.you see frens that u think is worth to trust all in de end they wil betray u de most.stab u oso dunno thats the worst.& i been through before.it hurt yeah.dunno wad they thinking oso.and frens that trust you but listen to others that you stab them & belief them instead is that call trusted fren?wondering..todae mood not reali gd .RPL not here.RPL my ....hahas.my fren ask me love or dream i choose.i reali cant ans.cos both important.but when love is out of control tears will roll.most pain is to see derr guy u like dun even tok to you or be wib ur gd fren yet u have to pretent happy to go out wib them.simply....todae my gd sista doris bdae goin celebrate later.gtg.write again tomoroXD

derr 2st picture my beloved sister dorothy wong xiao en.we dun used to be very good in derr past.when we 1st noe she stil dun like me.& she do something that reali break my heart.but after yrs of time.we became very good sister.& that we care for each other.though now i dun have derr time for her cos of work.derr 1st pic is kimi tan & doris swee.kimi tan we know for 12 yrs plus & we nv quarrel before.doris swee a very good sister that oways with me.rather i sad or wad & of cos look at 'fish' oso.XD..& one more i dun have her photo yet lyndy tan.oso another one that oways with me.and of cos.cos we work at derr same place somemore.hahas.but i want to say reali ths u gals.oh ya.& 1 more.goh goh jia.tot alot of things happen to us.but overall i stil take u as my sister.cos now derr you reali change lerr.change to better lerr.